Brain break and the long haul
Nov. 7th, 2007 10:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
map_of_the_worldSo I've finally accepted that this depression thing is going to be around forever, my brain is broken and it doesn't mater why, or what caused it it just is that way. obviously it has its ebbs and flows and cloud breaks and chasms but it doesn't go away its an integral part of who I am.
So I think i need to start looking into ways of controlling it with my diet and trying to soothe it nutritionally.
And the interesting thin is that bodies know bodies know what they need even if you arnt listening to them, even if you are trying not to give it too them, obviously I have caffeine and sugar cravings because they give me a boost and my body knows this but then it subsequently has to deal with the crash (and apparently caffeine has something that inhibits serotonin production) so that not so good, but I am a cheese freak, serous, serous cheese freak, I eat way more cheese than is healthy, insane amounts of cheese, and I learned yesterday that cheese contains something that releases endorphins.
And then marmite, I love marmite and it contains pretty much all of the B vitamins which are really good at fighting depression, and there's also a hefty whack of b vitamins in my favorite breakfast cereal. so I'm thinking if my body can tell me some of what it needs even when I'm paying it no attention at all then if i actually listened to the signals it was sending out I would really give it what it needed.
Maybe I do want to come off my antidepressants because I hate putting weird chemicals into my body but I'm going to spend a year and a half trying to get my diet good and balanced for what I need (i was going to say a year but that would be next November and coming of my anti-d's in winter is asking for trouble) but we shall see, I might need to stay on my anti-d's forever
I was thinking with a good diet I should have more energy and more mot ovation which means I will feel more like exercising so then i will get healthier and whatever the opposite of a vicious circle will happen (hopefully)
This isn't going to be about weight loss though, it is just going to be about fighting the depression, because if i think about weight my eating disorder will kick back in. The way I'm going to start eating will get me healthier anyway even if I don't loose any weight.
So I think i need to start looking into ways of controlling it with my diet and trying to soothe it nutritionally.
And the interesting thin is that bodies know bodies know what they need even if you arnt listening to them, even if you are trying not to give it too them, obviously I have caffeine and sugar cravings because they give me a boost and my body knows this but then it subsequently has to deal with the crash (and apparently caffeine has something that inhibits serotonin production) so that not so good, but I am a cheese freak, serous, serous cheese freak, I eat way more cheese than is healthy, insane amounts of cheese, and I learned yesterday that cheese contains something that releases endorphins.
And then marmite, I love marmite and it contains pretty much all of the B vitamins which are really good at fighting depression, and there's also a hefty whack of b vitamins in my favorite breakfast cereal. so I'm thinking if my body can tell me some of what it needs even when I'm paying it no attention at all then if i actually listened to the signals it was sending out I would really give it what it needed.
Maybe I do want to come off my antidepressants because I hate putting weird chemicals into my body but I'm going to spend a year and a half trying to get my diet good and balanced for what I need (i was going to say a year but that would be next November and coming of my anti-d's in winter is asking for trouble) but we shall see, I might need to stay on my anti-d's forever
I was thinking with a good diet I should have more energy and more mot ovation which means I will feel more like exercising so then i will get healthier and whatever the opposite of a vicious circle will happen (hopefully)
This isn't going to be about weight loss though, it is just going to be about fighting the depression, because if i think about weight my eating disorder will kick back in. The way I'm going to start eating will get me healthier anyway even if I don't loose any weight.
